Daily writing prompt

Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.

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December 12 2018 will be a day that I will never forget….but I want to forget about it. This was the day that I started that god awful job in the government. Everybody seemed to be very happy and excited for me. There was a lot of expectation from mom that I would do well as well as some expectation from others who were supposed to be my friends…who dare I say it had no right to expect so much from me. Anyway, like almost everything else in my life, I did my best grinch impersonation at Christmas, (since we are currently in that season,) and could not find anything good about working at all. Everything from having to get up early to taking orders from a guy who I would have rather not met to begin with to wearing clothes that I felt were too heavy for me, ETC made this job hell for me. It didn’t help matters when mom called me on my office phone and expected me to answer in a professional manner, (in this case it would be C.F..I.A. Jeff speaking,) rather than just saying hello. As for my work output, I have to say that I wasn’t up for any promotions and I certainly wasn’t a good candidate for employee of the month. I would take longer breaks than I was supposed to and would find every excuse to leave my desk for the stupidest reason except for if I had to use the bathroom. This was to get a drink of water or just because I needed a break after doing so little work. I would leave in the afternoon and sit near the elevator and only return a few minutes before my shift was to end. During business meetings, I would not contribute at all and would mainly fall asleep. Dealing with para under these circumstances was not easy either as they were upwards of 2 to 3 hours late on any given day picking me up to go home. At this point, I was very tired having been up for at least 10 of the 24 hours in one day and when I finally did get home, I was too tired to even east my supper in some cases. This simply was just not a good time period in my life despite others around me having different opinions and believing I could have done better and that I wasted a presented opportunity to be like everybody else even though I have a disability. This is one thing I don’t care about. I feel that I have to act as though I have a disability. One thing I forgot to mention was that I found myself having an ongoing argument with mom as I would also tend to find every excuse to stay home on any given day. This was done by me eating enough food to make myself sick as well as staying up all night and trying to sleep in past my wake up time…ETC. This simply was one of those times in my life that I would like to forget but unfortunately, it seems I’m unable to. The good news is that this only lasted 10 months as I quit in October 2019. With all of the slacking off, it’s actually amazing I did not get fired. This is something that maybe would have made my experience better, though a lot of people would likely disagree with this. It’s too bad I did not have this hobby back then. It would have taken the place of my job. I’m better off not being employed at all if I’m being honest.