I don’t know to be honest. I mean, I would like to live a long life but I don’t think I can do it alone. I need a girlfriend or someone to love me in a way like that. I know I keep going back and forth between “yes I do want one” and “no I don’t want one, “It would bring back bad memories,” ETC, However, lately I have not been thinking about the bad side of having a girlfriend but rather the beneficial side of having one. I think this is because of the time of year. We’re approaching new year’s day at this point and no one should spend new year’s alone. I say I don’t want to spend it alone. This doesn’t mean I don’t have friends to spend it with but the fact is that I’m getting really fed up with not having a girlfriend. I’m approaching middle age now and things are not like they were when I was a teenager. My hormones have calmed down and I feel like I’m ready to have a girlfriend without the threat of the same things happening as when I was a teenager. I’m more mature now and the last thing I want to be is alone for the rest of my life. I’m really getting discouraged over this. This is what I think is the secret to a long life. I’ve heard stories all my life about good health and positive thinking contributing to a long life and this may be true but one thing that I feel has been overlooked as it relates to a long life is having someone to share it with. I do not want to be an elderly man, (no offense to anyone on this site who is classified as such,) and still single. It would be much harder for me to get a girlfriend much less find love at all at that age because I won’t have much time left. It would make me feel worse when I see these people who are in their early 20’s or 30’s who have their whole life ahead of them with their significant others. Those people look at the elderly and frown upon them and say things like, “I don’t want to be with him, he’s old,” while calling them “Grandpa,” ETC. I should know because in my childhood, I was one of those people who thought the elderly were disgusting to look at and be around but the biggest problem with those people, (at least in my eyes, I can’t speak for anyone else,) is that some of them were single and had no chance of finding love before their time came. Those who were fortunate enough to either already have someone in their life or be able to find someone at their age probably had the unfortunate distinction of having their significant other as old and used up as they were. I vowed to never be one of those people who failed to settle down before he was too old to be considered valid enough but look at me. I’m now 34 years old going on 35 and I still don’t have a girlfriend. With each passing day, my confidence that I will find someone gets lower and lower and it makes me depressed to think that I may be an old man still looking to get lucky. It hurts me to say this but if I don’t find a girlfriend soon, maybe I don’t want to live a long life. I’m just being completely honest in saying this. I don’t mean to offend anybody especially mom who I know would be heart broken to hear me say this but it’s true. As much as good health and positivity contribute to a long life, it means nothing if you have no one to spend it with. I may have made mistakes in the past with my first girlfriend but I feel that everybody needs to be loved and that includes me.
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