The title of this blog pretty much sums up my entire view on the situation I’m about to write about. As we all know, the world is an imperfect place. Sometimes things will happen that are unfortunate to some people. These can be things that people don’t like obviously but most of the time, patience is all it takes for those problems to be resolved This is the case where many of my problems are concerned. A lot of the time, my issues, (at least the real ones,) stem from needing to have patience in waiting for something only for me to show a lack of patience which is displayed through my mood despite me trying so hard to suppress the urge to get mad. This generally happens when I’m waiting for para and usually in the time it takes for them to arrive, I’ve called mom about 100 times to see if she can rectify the situation where she obviously can’t. However, if and when she takes notice of my negative behaviour which stems from having to wait and lacking patience, she will get mad at me. Most people don’t know this about me but my lack of patience isn’t just waiting for a late bus. It extends to other aspects of my life as well such as power outages and service interruptions, the latter of which I had the displeasure of dealing with tonight. As most people are aware from having read my previous blogs, I basically live on the internet and I feel the absence of this for any reason would be the end of the world for me. Well, it definitely was this time around. One thing I forgot to mention was that sometimes these real life occurrences, (power outages, service disruptions,) ETC can bring about people and situations that don’t exist. Most people on this site should have read about the fact that I am single and that the question of whether or not I should have a girlfriend has gone back and forth between yes and no due to the stuff that occurred in my teenage years. Well after what happened tonight, the answer is NO! Never again should I speak to another girl, (except for my friend’s wife and sister,) as this would not present just a minor inconvenience to people but it may have immediate and drastic effects on the world. It would be worse than any natural disaster, any pandemic, any amount of violence against countries, ETC. It basically would not be fair to the rest of the planet. How does this tie in to this story you ask? Let me explain.

As I briefly mentioned before, the occurrence of some of these problems spike my anxiety as it represents change. In that moment, everything that is fake in my life comes to reality. I’ve always dreamed of getting paid a lot of money for my blogs, ($3000.00 to be exact,) and with the absence of the internet in reality, I can not get paid for my blogs which I had forgotten was not real due to the onset of the problem. My girlfriend, (who is also not real,) is the one telling me she has to follow protocol and that she cannot go back on the rules set by our boss just because the internet is down, even though it’s not my fault. Well, I completely lost sight of reality and see myself assaulting her as a result of this. The assault includes name calling, (including some sex related names,) and the threat to harm or even kill her. This is accompanied by screaming which along with the threats can be heard in reality. Sometimes I will create a scenario where she fights back but ultimately I always came out on top. I just realized this is online and at the risk of some people not fully understanding that she is a fake entity in my brain, I will not go into details as I cannot handle the consequences. I will just say this. It was very bad.

However, the biggest problem I have is that a lot of times, the situation, (which at the onset was thought to have been much worse/may last longer,) ETC, resolves itself and things go back to normal where I’m usually forced to profusely apologize for any wrongdoing I may have caused people starting from the onset of the problem which usually lasts until the issue has resolved. Most of the time, mom finds herself in this situation and it unfortunately usually takes a few hours for her to calm down. A regular apology isn’t usually enough to get things back to normal.

After about 45 minutes to an hour of sorrow and grief, not to mention a fake argument with a girl who doesn’t exist, I finally decided to settle in and watch one of my DVD’s citing the fact that at least I had those to watch. As it always does though, fate once again screwed me over. As soon as I put the DVD on, (it was still even in previews,) the internet suddenly turned back on one again making my tirade for nothing. This happened to be one of the few instances that mom wasn’t apart of and thankfully, I was left alone for the entirety of the situation being relevant so there was no real apology to make.

One thing I learned from this experience is that once and for all, I WILL NEVER HAVE A GIRLFRIEND AS LONG AS I LIVE. THE WORLD IS TOO PRECIOUS FOR ME TO PUT EVERY LIVING CREATURE AS WELL AS MY OWN LIFE AT RISK…..THE ANSWER IS NO AND AS A MATTER OF FACT, ME BEING ROMANTICALLY INVOLVED WITH ANYONE SHOULD NOT ONLY NOT HAPPEN BUT IT SHOULD BE ILLEGAL. YOU SEE THE DAMAGE THAT A FAKE ONE CAN DO. WELL, I’M AFRAID OF WHAT A REAL ONE WOULD DO TO ME. I MAY NEVER LIVE A PEACEFUL LIVE AGAIN.

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