Daily writing prompt

What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months?

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On a personal level, I don’t know what I will have to face in the next six months….at least as far as I’m concerned. However, my mother has some doctors appointments happening within that time frame which deal with some serious problems she’s been having. Ok so I will come out with what these problems are. She was diagnosed with cancer a year ago and to make a long story short, she fears that it may have resurfaced. This is obviously a worst case scenario but I would likely get in trouble for verbally telling this to anyone who may not know outside of family members but since this is a forum where I can get my thoughts out, I’m glad this question came up. In the next couple of weeks, she has an appointment to find out if this is confirmed or not. The challenge for me will be if I’m able to hold in my emotions without crying. This is something I have succeeded in not doing to this point despite how nerve racking the situation is but each time I hear something negative in relation to this topic, (whether mom is feeling il because of this or because she is suffering mentally, if and when she longs for things to be the way they used to be,) ETC, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t close to breaking out in tears. Mom and I are really close and I would hate for anything to happen to her. As everybody knows from reading my previous blogs, I dread that phone call or text message, that email, ETC, whatever means of communication someone chooses to use to let me know that her time has come. I know I won’t be able to handle it but I really fear that it is getting closer especially as mom becomes more and more depressed and incapable of handling the situation. So I suppose the challenge for me is facing this problem like a man, like mom would expect me to. This does seem like a tall task though and may be something easier said than done. This will surely be a challenge for me but whether I’m up for it or not is a whole different story. I’m hoping everything works out for mom though. She is my all time favorite person and I wish there was more I could do to support her through this horrible time but I suppose being there to support her is all she would want anyway. If this is the biggest challenge I face in the next six months, I would say I’m up for it though.