This entry is going to be different from the ones I’m used to submitting on this site. If anyone out there is wondering, I’m the guy who usually submits reviews on movies I’ve watched recently where I give my opinion on movies I’ve watched for those of you who care to look at it. This is not a review on a movie or anything else that everybody should be used to reading. I’m writing this entry to ask a simple question to everybody on this site. I normally wouldn’t do this but I’m seeking out the opinions of others on what I’m presently going through. This is out of character for me as I normally wouldn’t submit personal problems on this site. I just want to know if everybody feels that the way I’m acting is normal, (I think it is,) or if I’m being too harsh on myself and others. With that in mind, here is the question.

Obviously most people out there would have had at least one bad day in their lifetime as I have today. Having said that, I want to know if there’s anybody out there who has had a bad day for a reason that they are unsure of. Imagine this situation as it is the same one as I’m going through and see if anyone can relate to what I’m going through.

Your day isn’t really that bad. You feel as if it could have gone better but for what it’s worth, it wasn’t horrible. Nothing happened during the course of your day to make you upset. You weren’t fighting with anyone and you really had no reason to be upset. Suddenly, your mood changes from good to cranky and irritable with no real explanation as to why this is. You start to feel in your mind that nothing has gone right for you and you feel like you are lonely and the world is suddenly out to get you. You do your best to suppress these thoughts as you think to yourself, “I have no reason to act like this. I had a good day. Everybody is happy with me…”ETC. Despite this, you maintain a level of annoyance that would only be present if your day was horrible up to that point. To make matters worse, the smallest thing sets you off and anything anybody says is misinterpreted as a harsh comment which leads you to believe they have told you off as what they had said to you was not something you wanted to hear in that moment. After hearing that comment, (which would not have been intended to make you feel bad or upset you,) you fight to hold back tears as if you were in an argument with someone closest to you. This leads you to believe that you’ve lost all hope and that it’s all downhill from there. It then gets to a point that you are not in the mood to speak to anyone when they try to talk to you and you ignore their requests for you to speak politely to them. Through it all, for whatever reason, your day goes from good enough to not be able to complain about it to you simply feeling like every good thing that has happened to you throughout the course of the day basically went over your head and is replaced with a day that you regret living through. Let’s not forget the most important thing. IT’S ALL FOR NOTHING AND IT HAPPENED SUDDENLY. THERE MAY BE NO REASON FOR IT, AT LEAST ON THE SURFACE BUT YOU SUDDENLY HAVE A CHANGE OF HEART AND BECOME CRANKY AND IRRITABLE PRETTY MUCH ON A MOMENT’S NOTICE.

So with this in mind, has anybody else experienced this type of day? A day where nothing goes wrong but all of a sudden you change from out of nowhere and don’t want to be bothered or addressed by anyone. With this would also come the feeling of not being able to find comfort in those moments.

I will say this. This type of thing occurs where I’m concerned frequently enough, where the status of my day was good enough to not warrant any cranky, irritable, or negative behavior in general only for me to suddenly feel as though I’ve had enough and can’t cope with the outside world. When this has happened, I have resolved to take some time alone but even that doesn’t work as I end up feeling just as sad, disappointed and upset as I was with people present. Though this has happened on multiple occasions recently, the only notable time I felt this way that I can remember was on Easter a few years back during a family visit to my uncle’s house. Everything was going smoothly for me until I noticed that I was the only one present who didn’t have a girlfriend. As everybody knows from having read my previous entries about my first failed relationship/whether or not I should have one due to the circumstances surrounding the events with my first one, the answer as to whether or not I should pursue another girlfriend is undecided to this point as I have just as many moments believing it would not work, particularly ones where I relive in my head the bad things that happened with my first relationship, as I do believing I have a lot to offer a woman and thus, I feel like I can’t live without one. When the latter situation presents itself, it leads me to believe I need to give it a try as it would result in me being less depressed particularly when my best friend, who is currently married is with his wife and is unable to be with me as a result. In the above description of events at my uncle’s house, I was definitely feeling as though I needed a girlfriend as I no longer wanted to be “the odd man out,” as I put it as being single was resulting in me being depressed in that moment.

This may be a result of that feeling having resurfaced where I think the problem is that I’m lonely and want to be loved by someone other than my mother and my best friend. Don’t get me wrong though. I really do appreciate and admire their love and admiration for me. Having said that, I think it’s time for an improvement. Maybe it’s time for me stop being single for good and to prove exactly what I have to offer a woman. While I may not know anybody on this site yet, I’m sure there’s someone who has a place on this site who can relate to my situation. Someone who is single and feels like they have a lot to offer someone but has not had the chance to for one reason or another. As I said before, I have not done this before but as a man with no more options…..if you’re reading this….please come forth and meet me. I’m just looking for someone who can love me. It may not work but how will we know if we don’t try? As far as I’m concerned, it’s worth a shot. I’ve learned over the years that nobody can predict what’s going to happen but life is about trying new things and having new experiences. This site may be the answer for me to find what I’m looking for but it may also be my last hope to find true happiness.

So if anybody is interested, please respond as soon as you can. I’m eager to hear from you.

Jeff Landry

Site name: JJ’s movie reviews: Movie reviews right from his room.