This is one of those questions that I really don’t know how to answer. I’m definitely not the most confident person in the world. This is made apparent by the fact that I have very bad nerves and those nerves are the catalyst for most of my panic attacks. I need constant reassurance on most things in my life, particularly as it pertains to my place in mom’s life. I could possibly say that mom gives me confidence but at the same time in saying that, I think my answers are getting too repetitive. They always seem to incorporate mom in them or me in some way. With this in mind, I really don’t know who ease besides mom that I would consider confident. I really feel like what I need right now is a girlfriend as she would boost my confidence. The fact is that I’ve been single long enough throughout my life to the point where it’s starting to effect my self esteem which results in me calling the same people over and over again while going back and forth as it pertains to wanting a girlfriend or not and believing that I have a lot to offer one. Then again, I have just as many moments where I believe that it wouldn’t work due to my past experiences as a teenager and my desire to not relive those moments, ETC. Having said that, at the present moment, maybe having a girlfriend would be desirable as she would spend more time with me and give me more confidence. This is not to say that people in my life don’t already do this but as the saying goes, there’s always room for improvement. Maybe this is a sign that it’s time for me to get out there and show what I have to offer which may boost my own self confidence and hopefully I won’t have as many panic attacks as they may be linked to spending too much time in solitude. Everybody eventually needs to find someone who makes them whole. Nobody should be alone forever no matter how introverted, (as I have labelled myself as being,) a person is. This is something I’ve learned over the years. Once this happens and I find one, my confidence will be given a much needed boost.
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