This question presents a first time scenario for an answer. Usually, if some of these questions don’t have a full positive answer, I’m able to come up with something positive about it. As far as this question is concerned, there is no such thing as any sort of positive response because in all of my 35 years, not one encounter I’ve had with anyone has been positive. They all seem to end up the same way, with me swearing at them at least once or arguing with them over something I feel they have done wrong. It should be easy to recognize the fact that I’m not what you would call a people person. I mean, some people that I already know get on my nerves for one reason or another. This is why I don’t like meeting people. It’s a known fact that even if the person has good intentions and never does anything to get under my skin that I may still find faults where that person is concerned and in most cases, those faults are enough for me to say I never want to see that person again either because they have been deemed as weird or they aren’t what I would call passable as a human being. This could be because of a disability or some type of annoyance they cause me during their time of relevance in my life. In my experience and the experience of those closest to me, it has been determined that nothing good can ever come from me meeting new people. I’m happy with the people I have in my life. Now if this question was the opposite asking me what stuck out negatively, I would have a more detailed answer. As a matter of fact, I can name one person off the top of my head who despite not being relevant currently has surely had an impact on my life since this person’s time of relevance and still does to this day almost 20 years later, (and not in a good way either.) This person is my ex girlfriend who I have not seen or had contact with in almost two decades but whose five month stint as my girlfriend when we were teenagers, (the biggest mistake I ever made in my life was allowing this to start and even meeting her,) could have ruined my life at one point and the way things go currently, she still might as I still have instances where my anger kicks in as if she’s relevant. There are two reasons why I bring her up in this response. One is because it’s probably the best example of an encounter I had with someone that didn’t end well, (not surprisingly given my state of mind, I’ve had a few more after and even before I met her,) and the other is because coincidentally a few minutes ago when my internet went out for a second, I was having a moment involving her due to the situation. The internet problem obviously resolved itself as I’m on it writing this but this did not stop an occurrence of thought over her while the internet problem was relevant. The thing is as much as these issues occur, it just goes to prove the fact that I cannot meet new people and definitely not a girlfriend. Having new people in my life wouldn’t enhance it and make it better. If anything, it would make it more stressful and at my age, I cannot handle that.
One thing I will give this question props for is existing at a time when the subject matter was currently on my mind. This has happened a lot since I started using this site and answering these questions, where something that is currently bothering me ends up being the topic of the daily question on the site thus giving me all the incentive in the world to vent my frustrations over the topic and in the process, make me feel better.
As these occurrences of thought as it relates to my ex girlfriend keep happening, I will have to change my answer about whether or not I should have a girlfriend from yes to no. It seems like I can never just settle on a definitive answer. I say no but then my hormones start kicking it to the point where it could be a possibility only to have negative thoughts fill my head again causing me to rethink that answer. Now that I think about it, maybe the answer should be no since I seem to be much calmer without seeking one.
However, I will say this. As far as any encounter that I have had throughout my life that has been positive, there hasn’t been any and that’s a good thing. I will say this one more time. THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE CURRENTLY ARE THE ONES I WANT TO KEEP AND I DON’T NEED ANYMORE. I’m simply not a people person. I’m classified as introverted and this is how I want it to stay.
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