Tagline: For years, they told him it was all in his head…maybe it should have stayed there.

The road to love may reach a dead end, literally

Our story takes place as Megan and I have been married for over twenty years now and we are definitely not as young as we used to be. Despite our marital status, Megan and I have had a lot of fights, almost all of which have lead to probable divorce, only for true love to conquer all and we have been able to fight through the constant arguments which have nearly lead to our demise as a couple. This was until one day when Megan lost her patience with me due to my past problems with her and we hit a major snag in our relationship. This was a snag that even the strongest relationships can’t withstand. This is where our story begins.

Silent Love Part 5: Crossroads

Our story begins in the year 2045 where Megan and I are now in our mid 50’s. Despite us still being in love with each other, the road to the point we are currently at has been nothing short of bumpy. No matter how hard we have tried, we can’t seem to stay on the same page and have fought about matters such as money and what to eat for dinner, ETC. Despite how trivial these matters would seem, with each fight, she goes away to England and she has been doing this more than she’s been home lately. However, we have always seemed to barely survive with each of these fights coming with a warning of divorce should it occur again.

It was my own inability to let go of my past problems which lead to our biggest fight yet. This came as a result of mom deciding to allow us to love with her again. At this point, her advanced age and declining health over the years has lead her to believe that her time is coming. She has decided to have Megan and I live with her again to recapture her youth when we were kids and all living in the same house, ETC. She has always said that if she was going to go out, she wanted us to remember the great life we had growing up. My stepfather was away on a work related trip where he was almost never home. With this in mind, it was just Megan, mom and I living in the same house and we even managed to secure the exact same town house we live in during our youth. Mom slept in her old room while Megan and I slept on a sofa bed in the living room. This was done as a way to give us one floor between us and mom.

Things were much different than they were back then as they are now. While mom still does most of the cooking, Megan takes care of everything else for me including bathing and getting me dressed in the morning since mom is no longer able to provide that care due to her condition. There is a significant change in my overall demeanor now that I live with mom. For one thing, of course, I’m not calling her nearly as much and we have spent more time together than we have since I have moved away. Megan and I are getting along much better and despite mom’s condition, (which would have been the catalyst for my misbehavior in previous years,) everything is going great.

Despite our advancing age, Megan and I spend most of our nights on the pull out couch getting intimate. This is done as mom goes to bed before the sun sometimes so Megan and I have a lot of time together. However, things took a sour turn one night when I made an assumption that I had not made in years. This assumption may have cost me everything.

After two weeks worth of intimacy, Megan suggests to me that we slow down a bit citing potential pregnancy if we were to continue along with an inability for us to care for the baby due to physical and financial restraints. When this suggestion occurs every night over the next month, it leads me to believe that Megan had undisclosed feelings for mom and wants to save any baby she has for her. This leads to countless arguments. One night, I finally snap.

“You know what? Why don’t you just go upstairs right now and tell mom how you feel about her? I guarantee you’re going to get your heart broken when you find out that she’s doesn’t have the same feelings. Also, Andre, (the name of my step father,) will not take kindly to you doing this. I’m sick of feeling like you have feelings for other members of my family. Why can’t you just stay faithful to me?” I say

This complaint is enough for her to say she never wants to see me again and ends the relationship. She promises to keep coming back and forth to help mom take care of me but the relationship has ended there.

Mom finds out a week later when she notices that Megan and I have no longer been getting intimate or even talking to each other except for what’s necessary.

“You know what Jeff? I’ve been dealing with this since you were a teenager. I couldn’t deal with it back then when I was healthy and I can’t deal with it now especially since I’m sick. If you think I’m so bad, then maybe we shouldn’t have a relationship. Remember what I told you. Things are not like they were when you were a kid. Now that you’re an adult and you have someone like Megan to take care of you, I don’t need to have a relationship with you. It’s a bonus if I do and I have that right. So you need to make a choice. You can stay with me and get rid of Megan or you can keep Megan and get rid of me but you can’t have us both because the same thing is going to keep happening. You’re going to keep accusing me of being unfaithful to you and being in love with Megan, ETC. I’m too old and sick to be dealing with this now. It’s just a fact. So the choice is yours.” Mom says.

With that in mind, weeks go by though it appears as though my mind is already made up. After all, despite some poor judgement I showed as a teenager, I have always been on mom’s side. Things took a nasty turn for us as Megan, (who has now filed for divorce from me,) shows the changes she has made in the aftermath of our relationship.

With the decision still not yet made, Megan arrives to the house with an announcement that she has found a new boyfriend. She doesn’t tell me who this person is at this point. Ben arrives to the house and I introduce him to Megan as I believe she does not yet know him.

She explains her side of the story to him and he is upset at how I treat her and claims I could treat her better. He has unresolved issues with mom as he is upset with her for defending me in our latest unrelated fight. Therefore, he does not respect her.

“He’s fat, uneducated and he’s a momma’s boy. I cannot believe you defend the way he is especially towards me.” he said.

They end up leaving together as Ben has invited her for coffee. Before they leave, Megan whispers to me, “Choose me over your mom or you will not like what happens.” she said

At this point, I was stuck in the middle. Of course, I loved mom but I was afraid of losing Megan. Thinking mom would understand, I chose Megan. Rather than tell her, I showed this in various ways over the next few weeks such as avoiding her phone calls, (at times when I could have answered them,) and dismissing her calls when I do take them. This broke her heart as she always thought we had a good relationship. Even more than this was the shock that came with this. Unfortunately, the shock was too much for mom to overcome and she succumbed to heartbreak.

Chapter to continue in part 6