When I last wrote the first part of chapter 5, I had moved in with Megan to the old house that I lived in with mom growing up as her health had declined to the point where she knew her time was coming. This decision came as a result of mom wanting to leave us on a happy note by reminding us of how good things were in our youth. She had enlisted Megan’s assistance in helping me with my everyday routine such as bathing and dressing while still able to cook the meals for us everyday.

Problems arose for us when past problems I had which started in my teenage years and resurfaced early on in our relationship came back to haunt me when Megan refused to get intimate with me as she feared pregnancy. I had misinterpreted her fear as having undisclosed feelings for mom leading me to make an inappropriate comment which suggested that she would prefer be with her than me. This caused Megan to get upset with me and she would tell mom later after mom failed to realize what was going on since we were not speaking unless it pertained to helping me with my every day routine.

As the situation upset mom, she gave me an ultimatum to either choose to be with her and get rid of Megan or keep Megan in my life and be disowned by her citing her inability to deal with this type of issue like she was once able to due to her declining health.

For a while I had felt like my decision was basically a no brainer as I truly loved mom. However, the decision would become a harder one when Megan threatened me in the worst way possible if I chose mom instead of her. This prompted me to change my decision and disown mom…a decision I chose to not verbally tell her but rather I chose to let my actions speak louder than my words by not calling her as much and purposely not answering her calls when I would have been able to. The final nail in the coffin was when I joined in on everybody’s else’s criticisms of mom. This was something she was not expecting and the shock proved too much for her. She would unfortunately die of a broken heart. Little did I know that the worst was yet to come for me even though my worst fear had come true. Mom was no longer with us. If this wasn’t hard enough to deal with, there was much more worse things coming and this brings me to where I am currently.

Please stay tuned for the continuation of Silent Love Chapter 5: Crossroads