Our story begins after mom has found out the truth about who gave birth to the baby. Though she is really unable to care for it due to her situation, she has made the arrangements to have the baby live at the retirement home with her and Brad following the ultimatum given to us by police to find the baby a suitable home or she would have been placed in foster care. Mom did not want this for her grandchild but had no choice but to take in the baby as she would have failed as a grandmother by allowing the baby to be placed. As anyone can imagine, there was one person to blame for all of this and unfortunately I was that guy. Mom and I haven’t spoke since the baby has moved into the retirement home. Though the reason for us not talking has been given as mom being too busy to do so, I know deep down that the real reason is harbored resentment, shock and anger that I would put everybody in this situation for what appears to be my own need and desire. This would be to get intimate with Megan to the point where everybody knew she was mine and everybody’s belief that I had to get her pregnant in order to convince myself that she would never leave me. While this baby should have been the greatest gift I could ever give to mom, her presence was really inconvenient for everybody else and as for Megan and I, well we’ve never been more far apart and our relationship has been really strained due to the impact that has had on her. The ordeal has left her in a situation where she person due to her inability to care for her daughter. Like everybody else though, she blames me for what happened. After not talking to mom or Brad in several weeks, I finally reached out to try and smooth things over.

“You know Jefferson I can’t believe you would allow yourself to get Megan pregnant like that.” mom said

“Mom I only did it because I was insecure about my place in Megan’s life. You know how it is. I mean she’s beautiful and I was afraid that I might lose her if someone else could give her more. It was a complete and total accident. I have to say that I’m sick of being blamed for this. You know my whole life you’ve told me that you love kids and that the greatest treasure is the birth of a baby so you know what? I don’t feel bad for what I did anymore. If anything, I did you a favor. I proved your point that having a child is the greatest gift of all. And I gave that gift to you but you know what? Fine. If you and everyone else want to try me like I just murdered someone, go ahead and do that but you know that what I did was the exact opposite. I didn’t take away life. I created it and for what it’s worth I had a real good time doing it. I mean Megan is fuckin hot. So I will no longer accept any criticism for doing what I did.” I ranted.

“Just like almost everything else in your life, you didn’t think this through. Do you really think you’re able to give the baby what she needs? Are you able to provide clothing, good food, a place for her to sleep at night? Maybe when she gets a little older, an education? Did you at any point stop to think how this would effect her as she gets older? Look at me Jefferson. I can’t give her all the things I used to be able to give you. She’ll never go to school. She’ll never have friends. She’ll never be well taken care of like you were. Face it, she’ll never have a life because her parents are as capable of giving her one as her grandmother is. The way a child’s life is when they’re young defines who they will become as an adult. Megan will never have any of the same opportunities or privileges that you did so what do you think her chances of living a normal life are? You didn’t do this because you cared about your daughter. You were only thinking of yourself. You could have just left well enough alone and got mildly intimate with Megan and avoided all of these problem knowing full well that no matter what, Megan still loves you but no. You had to put us all in a dangerous situation by burdening us with the responsibility of a baby that none of us have the physical, financial or emotional ability to take care of. In the end, the baby is the one who loses because she’ll never have a chance at leading a normal life. This may sound really harsh and I’m sorry to say this about any child, much less my own granddaughter and your daughter but we had no right giving her that chance.” mom ranted.

I laughed only to be stopped by mom angrily. “Don’t you dare even try to laugh. This isn’t funny. It’s sad. It’s ridiculous. Hell it should be downright criminal for you to think you’re capable of caring for another life. So wipe that stupid grin off your fuckin face or I swear to you you will not see me again unless it’s to care for your daughter. As a matter of fact, maybe you shouldn’t even see your daughter.” mom said

“That’s the thing mom. Once again everything you said is right. I did not intend to have a baby with Megan and I really don’t care about her. But what am I supposed to do? She is already born. How many times do I have to tell you that it was an accident? I’m a little surprised though. Given all the times you told me you wanted a granddaughter, I would think that you would have put your feelings of anger aside to care for it instead of telling me I’m not allowed to see my daughter. If anything, you, Megan or anyone else shouldn’t be mad at me, you should be thanking me. As much as Megan gave birth to our baby, I had to do the deed with her just as much. I’m just as much to be admired for the creation of this baby as Megan is but yet I’m not. Everybody feels bad for Megan and they hate me. You know what I think the problem is? You’re just jealous because it wasn’t you having the baby with her. Well maybe I wouldn’t have felt the need to have the baby if you and Brad especially knew who you shouldn’t cuddle with at night. Had you not always tried and aspired to cuddle with her as much you did, if there was only intimacy between her and I, which is the way it should be, then maybe we wouldn’t be in this situation because I would not have felt the need to convince myself that she was mine through the birth of the baby. That’s what her birth was to me. It was reassurance of the fact that if Megan could allow me to get intimate with her to the point of pregnancy where she wouldn’t allow anybody else to, she was mine forever. One thing is for sure though, this never would have happened if you kept it in the pants and understood and respected that she’s mine. Not yours and not Brad’s. You couldn’t handle the fact that she loved me and not you. That’s why prior to her birth, you kept pushing towards her to the point where I felt useless. It broke my heart and if I may say so myself, I feel like I did in my teenage years. So no, it’s not reassurance that lead to the baby birth nor was it even an accident. She was born as a result of a broken heart because you just couldn’t leave Megan alone. So you’re right. This baby does lose out in the end. Years from now when she’s older, I’ll have the burden of telling her that she only came to be because grandma and uncle Brad broke daddy’s heart and loved mommy a little too much. If I were you, I wouldn’t be upset about what I’m saying to you. You’re right. Baby Megan does lose out in the end. It’s just the circumstances you were wrong about. She doesn’t lose out by us not being capable of providing for her, she loses out because she was born out of sorrow. Face it, this is all your fault and it’s Megan’s fault too. You shouldn’t have tried to get intimate with her but she shouldn’t have let you get intimate with her. So the way I look at it, it’s not my fault. it’s everybody else’s fault. You caused this catastrophe, not me.” I explained.

Midway through my rant, mom’s jaw dropped as she could not believe what I was saying. “GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE NOW. I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN AND I’M GOING TO COURT FIRST THING TOMORROW TO SUE FOR THE RIGHTS TO THIS CHILD BECAUSE I DON’T THINK YOU DESERVE TO BE HER FATHER. I CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT YOU JUST SAID TO ME. NEED I REMIND YOU WHO THE FUCK I AM? I’M YOUR GOD DAMN MOTHER AND I’LL HAVE MY OWN THINGS TO TELL MY GRANDDAUGHTER AS SHE GETS OLDER. I WILL TELL HER THAT THE REASON SHE DOESN’T HAVE A FATHER IS BECAUSE HE’S A FUCKIN ASSHOLE WHO TURNED AGAINST HIS MOTHER WHO PROVIDED FOR HIM AND LOVED HIM EVEN WHEN THINGS WEREN’T IN HER FAVOR TO DO SO. DO YOU KNOW WHAT I HAD TO GO THROUGH TO GET YOU TO WHERE YOU ARE TODAY? DO YOU EVEN CARE? I DON’T THINK SO BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY, YOU ARE SELFISH AND I REALLY HATE TO SAY THIS BUT I DON’T THINK YOU LOVE ME ANYMORE. IF YOU DID, YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER SAID ANYTHING LIKE THAT TO ME. HOW DARE YOU? HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF THE PHRASE “DON’T BITE THE HAND THAT FEEDS YOU? WELL YOU DIDN’T JUST BITE IT, YOU CHEWED IT UP AND SPIT IT OUT. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU JUST SAID TO ME. I HOPE MEGAN SEES WHAT AN ASSHOLE YOU ARE AND LEAVES YOU AND BRINGS THE BABY WITH HER. NOW GET OUT OR I’M CALLING THE POLICE. IT IS OVER. AS OF THIS POINT, WE HAVE NO RELATIONSHIP.” mom screamed.

“Mom I’m really sorry…..she stopped me before I could finish what I was saying.

“I don’t want to hear it. You want to hear something that somebody should be sorry about? I’m sorry that Megan chose to be with you in the first place. That was a mistake. Now get out!” mom screamed

At a loss for words, I left the retirement home.

The End