As I am very tired at the time of this writing, I can guarantee that this post will not be as long as my other ones. However, in keeping with the routine of writing things down as soon as start thinking about something or realizing something, I have decided to write this very short post.

I found something out a little while ago as I was watching tv. I never told anyone about this but then again, everybody is sleeping at this point. Anyway it appears that my unwillingness to have another girlfriend has become so apparent and obvious to me that I can’t even watch movies or tv from the time period during which my first girlfriend was legitimate in my life. There was a movie that I have never seen but heard about. It is “How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days.” It was a movie that I remember my ex watching as we were on the phone most nights. As I said before, I have never seen it to this day but she described the movie to me on the phone years ago. It was a movie that I remembered from when I was a preteen. I’m not sure if mom has seen it but I’m sure she has. Anyway, I started watching the trailer to this movie as a possible one to add to my list of movies. The preview showcased certain scenes that she had described to me and once I realized that this was the movie she was talking about, I felt like I was going to vomit. I mean, it wasn’t because of the movie but I just didn’t like the person watching it. I ended up adding it to my list as it is a good movie. I just hope it doesn’t mess with my brain and bring me back to that crappy time of my life. This wasn’t the worst movie I have come across though. I came across the trailer for the movie “License To Wed” with Robin Williams and I think this one was worse because I started watching it on the same night as my first date where I was humiliated and embarrassed. I did not see the whole movie that night. I only saw about the first 10 mins of it. However, this is not a movie I would watch again as it too would bring me back mentally to the worse time in my life. Luckily, this movie is not available to stream. This is really sad to think about because as everybody knows, I’m the biggest fan of movies. Having said that, one movie that will never premiere is the one about a man named Jeff, (Jeff is my first name. As I have mentioned before, I do not mind giving out my name even though this is online,) meeting and falling in love with his new girlfriend. It’s not because I’m not an actor. It’s because that would be the premise of a horror movie that even a 100 year old man couldn’t watch because it’s too scary and honestly, this is something that makes me sick to even think about. I simply should never have another girlfriend as long as I live. I do apologize to those of you who are sick of reading the same thing over and over again but it’s true. I need to be a loner. This is the only way the movie of my life will have a happy ending.

By: Jefferson Bert