The title of this post pretty much sums up my views on having any sort of interaction outside the family. I’m sick and tired of having my nights disturbed by thoughts that I will one day find another girlfriend. I struggle for a few minutes and then realize I don’t have her and then find myself writing a different version of the same story that everybody has read a thousand times. A man like me deserves to be locked up . Not in a jail cell but in his own apartment because truth be told, if I found myself in the company of anyone else other than mom, my step father, my step brother and others in my family, I would indeed end up locked in a jail cell. This is pretty much guaranteed. These moments I have are getting more physically violent and bordering on criminal. However, when they start involving mom getting hurt by me is when I put my foot down and realize something that I realized a long time ago but this stupid thought keeps entering my brain. Earlier today, I had one of these moments where mom herself actually got injured by me out of anger and when I finally came back to reality, I realized this had to stop. I realized that the only reason I still had all of the respect from mom that I have and the reason I’m still a free man is because it was just a thought and this slut isn’t real. If she was, things would be much different.

So I’m going to do something I don’t normally do. I’m actually going to discuss the events that took place in the thought that I had a few mins ago. I’m hoping this will allow me to sleep better at night.

It’s a very simple thought. It involves mom picking my girlfriend from my house to go somewhere. I don’t know where but I’m hoping it’s home. Anyway, the destination is not really that important. Of course, I don’t like the fact that she has any interaction with her and I trap her arm inside mom’s car door after locking it from the inside. With nowhere to go, she stands helpless as I beat her mercilessly.

Now I know that I am not the type of person who deserves a girlfriend if I’m going to basically abuse her. But maybe this is a sign that I really don’t want one. Maybe I will be making a statement towards mom that my mind is made up about potentially having one in the future. The fact is that what girl would ever want to go out with me if I abuse them? Furthermore if I enjoy doing it, maybe I should be locked up.

I’ve talked a lot about what would happen if I ever got another girlfriend. But there’s two sides to every story. Something I haven’t discussed is the type of boyfriend I think I would make.

I’ve said this a thousand times to my step brother in conversation and this is just something I know for a fact. I would not give a damn about her. I wouldn’t care how she feels about anything and I certainly wouldn’t do her any favors. Especially ones that involve money. You see she would have a purpose in this relationship and I know what everybody is thinking. “You just want her for sex Jeff.” (My name is Jeff by the way.”) Well that’s only partially true. Yes I would want her for sex but I think that’s what everybody wants when they strive to be in a relationship. Otherwise there would be no reason to want one. Well at least as far as I’m concerned. Some people may want other things but I personally would want sex. However, there is something else she could do for me. She would serve as my slave. What I want done, she would do it when I want it done . This would be the type of person that mom would want to take her place when her time comes. It doesn’t matter what I need. If I need money, it’s mine. If I run out of something in my fridge, she gets it for me and she does so without complaining. I would simply tell her that being my slave is what she signed on for when she agreed to date me. I know I’m not being very gentlemen like but everybody knows what being a true gentlemen got me.

Face it. A romantic relationship would be a job for any girl I start to date. I would also truly benefit from the good stuff. I haven’t forgotten about that. Having said that, I don’t think there’s too many girls who would want to be my slave so I believe that the chances of me every finding someone to agree to my terms is very slim so I may get my way. Maybe I won’t ever have another girlfriend.

By: Jefferson Bert