Daily writing prompt

When are you most happy?

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Unfortunately due to my anxiety, a lot of people have said over the years that I’m never happy. I’ve been known to become very agitated when things happen which do not favour me. I lack patience when necessary if I have to wait for something to happen or someone to show up somewhere, ETC. I’m very irritable when it comes to my money and the lack of it especially if others around me have more or get discounts on things I do not get. I’ve also wrestled with the decision of whether or not to pursue a girlfriend due to the events that occurred in my teenage years. As this tends to spark anxiety attacks and threaten my relationship with my mother in the present, I always tend to believe I should not have a girlfriend. I’m going to make this answer really simple. These days, the less I have to do, the better. As everybody should know by now, I’ve recently taken up the hobby of reviewing movies that I watch. However, the structure of my life makes it nearly impossible for me to watch anything concrete. This often tends to contribute to my anxiety as well. The desire to just sit and relax and watch things from start to finish without worrying about the clock, (which is something else that is a big factor in my life these days,) as everything seems to have it’s time to be done. However, this unfortunately doesn’t seem to be workable and it appears as though I will never have another day in my life where I’m not fighting against the clock or waiting for a bus and I’m just able to relax. This gives me the same anxiety attack almost every day. With all of these problems I have, you would think that there’s nothing in this world that makes me happy. There is one thing however that does. The only time I’m happy is when I’m sleeping. However, even this has its shortcomings as far as the length of time I can enjoy it because eventually I have to wake up earlier than a rooster on a farm some days just to have another shower and live my life doing this and doing that, waiting for this bus, that bus, this person, that person, ETC. However, when I’m under the covers is when I’m most content. I do not mean this in a sexual manner as I’m single but I really love to sleep.